apparently..

Americans are the top viewers of my blog! 
Hurray! *star spangled banner plays*


It's kinda funny cuz.. i might be headed to the US to further my studies.. so.. 600+ would know me over there. :D 
unless the same 3 people visited my blog 200 times over the span of.. uhh. the 3-4 years of my blogging?


cool. extreme fan-dom.


i got my Clara C concert ticket! (man, that's CCC. cool.)

:D :D :D
She sounds as great as she looks. :D


so stoked for the CCC. lol.
i MUST get a picture with her. once i do, it's going up here on this blog. :D


i want a squier telecaster. 
that's an electric guitar. 
it looks awesome.
it sounds awesome.
it sits well with someone awesome.. like me.


lolol.


I think notwithstanding the number of visits from American bloghoppers, hardly any of them read this stuff.
same goes to any of you from other countries. even the non-english speaking ones.


SO IF YOU'RE READING THIS, GO TO THE CHATBOX OVER THERE ON THE RIGHT AND TYPE "SCINTILLATING ARMPIT HAIR"


or something of that grandeur.


because.. it'll be cool.
yeh. 


alright. 
goobaiz.

WATCH, LIKE, AND VOTE. :D

HI.


I see that some people venture these barren lands.


WELL. GOOD PUBLICITY.


please please, watch and enjoy. :D
if you like it.. say you like it! comment on the video itself.
if you don't.. you could say it nicely and state why.
if you love to troll or flame and give some senseless raging comment, please.. go away.
haha.


so here it is. NICE AND BIG.






PLEASE SHARE IT IF YOU LOVE IT.


and since you've watched that, go ahead and check this page out if you have facebook - which i am very sure you do - and vote for my band! :D


http://apps.facebook.com/sonylikemalaysia/contests/151420/voteable_entries/32309013?order=recency&view_entries=1


its a competition we've recently joined and we need the votes to win and go compete with other country's winners! 
for so long, i've wanted to excel in my music life (i wanted to say career but.. there isn't much of a career at all so.. yeah. T_T) and this most definitely will be a huge stepping stone for my band and i. 


so please! vote vote vote. :D
and if you enjoyed our performance, please share the video with others and get them to vote too! :D




thank you all very much.


you can also check out my channel. not much yet but i'll add more covers soon!
also my band channel.


i am now a freelance writer. wut.


i might be teaching guitar at a music school soon. yay!


i am sitting for SAT 1 in two and a half weeks and i haven't started studying yet. oh crap.


i LOVE Clara C and her music. i'm going for her concert in KL! 29th November 2011.
click here for more details! ---->http://www.tickethotline.com.my/events/clara-c-live-in-kl/


i miss my friends who have flown overseas. ):


i want a new electric guitar. telecaster, maybe?


i still want the original L4D2. hehe.


i am nothing.


... wait wut?


yup. i am nothing. if i don't have Christ, i am nothing.


Christ is all i have and all that matters.


been discovering more about God lately through His word.


i constantly thank Him for His mercy and the things He has revealed to me through His Word.




well that's all i shall say for now.


thank you all for your time! 


Thus ends my post.

nothing good happens late at night.

oh God.

help me.

pull me out of this miry pit.

rushes of memories run through my veins.

circulating through my being.

projecting themselves finally, after a pretty long while.

oh God.

is this of You?

random post from nowhere.

eating away at itself.

it wrenches.

it eats away at itself.

it knows the Way.

yet, it chooses to digress.

it pains with its very own agreements.

it screams in agony.

but never to be heard. only by the One above.

but yet, His solace does not quench the burning coal..

not as quickly as desired.

it creates

a facade. a masquerade. a pretense.

of joy and elation.

to hide the emptiness inside.

it enjoys ephemeral satisfaction.

only to be dragged down later into the hole dug out by itself.

the hole of regret.

why, oh why does it do this to itself?

the answer is unseen. unheard.

it is locked somewhere deep and dark.

only reached through catacombs of true reflection.

only ventured when.. well. i don't know.

i'm sorry i brought you here.

i should've cleaned up this mess before i did.

or at least while you were still here.

why, oh why does it do this to itself?

i am my own affliction, indeed.

only He can set it free.

only He can loosen these chains.

only He can liberate it from its pains.

only He can set it free.

but until then.

this is...

key to my mind.

i revisited my blog and decided to just give it a post.

hello world.

i'm 18 now.

i'm doing edexcel A-levels in methodist college kuala lumpur.

(its a good college! you should consider. 8D)

i think i've gotten somewhat taller.

i still love green.

i love God.

i'm on holidays now.

gee i dunno.

today's been a really stone-ish day.

had a real bad dream this morning.

dreamt of seeing dead people. like a murder scene. in front of an airport.

i saw people crying over the bodies.

i saw people vomiting from the smell.

the ominous feeling loomed over me, even after i woke up.

even now i feel it, as i type this.

ugh. hate it.

i prayed and fell back asleep. o_O

woke up at around 1pm.

no idea why i keep sleeping for so long these days.

once i entered holiday mode, i sleep for 12 hours. o.o

during usual college days i sleep for like what.. 6 hours at most?

4 hours usually?

hmm.

so yeah, ever heard the saying? (which i believe to be true)

the first 15 minutes of your day determines the course/mood of your whole day.

it applies to me, to some extent, somehow.

so yeah, not such a great day today, mood-wise i guess.

hmm.

i had.. char kuay teow for lunch?

...

i had worship practice for this coming youth camp!

elevate 10.

will be going to peacehaven, genting highlands from 11th-14th.

its gonna be a great time with God. and friends of course. (:

jou's not going though. D: again.

because of.. MADWORLD!

its a musical/dance production, a collaboration between SIBKL and DUMC.

there were shows on the 3rd and 5th of dec. i caught all three of 'em. they were all awesome! :D

the dance is spectacular, really. loved it.

do not fret! there are shows on the 24th, 25th and 26th! christmas weekend!

it'll be at SIBKL. Google is your best friend. go get directions from there. x)

tickets are free, but required for entry. so.. go comment on someone's wall on fb that could possibly help you get tickets!

or post something in the chatbox. maybe i can help. :O

hmm.

its 3.42am.

i like underoath?

yes i know, very different from usual, secular music.

but hey, some of their songs' lyrics are good.

and i dunno, i've accustomed myself to know how to appreciate their music.

yes, it still is music. if you don't think it is, then learn to widen your listening variety.

the drums are awesome. even more colorful once their drummer recently got replaced for their latest album, Disambiguation. not dissing the former drummer's skills or anything. :D he's awesome too. its just that the new drummer's style fits the band better.

and since the drummer who left, Aaron Gillespie, was also the main singer for the band, now the screamer, Spencer Chamberlain, had to do all the singing and screaming for their latest album.

so the new album has got a pretty new feel to it.

though i have to admit, Spencer can really sound like Aaron sometimes, when he sings. o_O

one of my favourite songs by Underoath is Too Bright To See, Too Loud To Hear.

i like the lyrics. check it out. :D

don't worry, there's not thaaat much screaming.

if you compare to other songs from them. o_O

hmm. that's all for now i guess.

i'm just here randomly saying whatever comes to my mind.

and there are many things on my mind.

i'll come back... sometime.

Thus ends my post.

i got a feelin'...wooooohoooooo.

that tonight's gonna be a...

it ain't night no more. it's a dawn of a new beginning. (eg. college NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO)

which brings me to say. holy CAOW. i haven't enrolled myself in mckl yet craaap. i need to soon. =\

hello people. =D since spm is over.. err. i guess there should be time to blog, no? lets rekindle this fire, eh? just like how oxygen rekindles a glowing splinter HOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO.


sooo. there are a few things to blog about.. like camp.. prom.. spm. o.o

but its 2am. don't think i can regurgitate everything. so i'll blog about the outstanding things!

first of all.. camp! =D

it was an awesome camp.. even though some of my expectations weren't met, it was a great new experience. encountering God a whole new way. =)

though i CAN tell you one thing that wasn't awesome about the camp. and i bet if you asked anyone else who went for the camp, majority of them would say the same thing.
none other than the... ELEVATOR. (kinda funny cuz the theme of our camp was 'elevate' )
elevator there = fail. seriously. there are a few points i can expatiate on.
one.
the elevator are really really SSUUHHHH-LOOOWWWWWW.
in contrast to the elevators at prom in westin hotel, holy crap man. the westin hotel elevators, when going down, i remember seeing the numbers changing in the elevator. and in just one second, it would change from 15... to 5. no joke! o.o

but THIS phail elevator. is like. uber slow. they have couches on level 2 in front of the elevators cuz they know that their elevators fail so bad. and you can hear the cables creaking from outside the elevator door so you know the elevators are badly maintained.

two.
the lif bomba, which is supposed to be faster than the other two lifts, was slower than the other two lifts. == this is because, for some weird reason, it would decide to be annoying and stop at every floor. how convenient.
if someone were trapped up on the 10th floor and was in need of rescue from a fire, he sure gg la.==

three.
the lift loves to do stupid things like.. skip my floor even though i press the button.
there was once, i was late for practice. because i'm mr i'm-always-late-for-soundcheck-before-session-starts according to jon. and i had to go back up to my room because i forgot my maggi cup. =\ was gonna give it to my mortal. so i took the elevator (thank goodness it wasn't the lif bomba) up to the 8th floor and got my stuff. i came back and pressed the down button. the elevator was being gay on the 9th floor, taking its sweet time. so i waited (im)patiently. after a while, i glanced back at the level display thing or whatever you call it. and it said 7. and the down button was still lit. == meaning, the lift didn't even stop.

so yes.. there's your Le Paris elevator.

on the good side.. AWESOME EXPERIENCE TIME.
on the 3rd day of camp, the morning session was just amazing. everyone was just so.. synced with God and everyone experienced Him in a powerful way, i'm sure. so after the session, we went ahead and had our lunch. aaaand.. at this point of time, i hadn't received anything from my angel yet.. =(

wait, some of you guys don't know what angel mortal is.
okay everyone in the camp is given another person to bless throughout the camp without revealing his/her identity (until camp is over). so the one who blesses is the angel and the one who's blessed is the mortal.

so yeah, i hadn't received anything yet. and theeen.. my group member, le on handed me a folded piece of paper saying it was from my angel. so of course, i was happy because i finally received something! =D i eagerly opened up the paper, awaiting a nice note or something. but as i read the first few lines, i discovered it wasn't from my angel. but from.. someone who God spoke to about me! o.o that's even better than a note from my angel! i was so surprised! this is what it said..

hey, joel

i'm not your angel but God asked me to tell you something. We don't know each other but God works in many ways, right? Well, He said that He have(has) bigger plans for you in the future and that you will be a mighty warrior for Him. He also says that you have to give up certain things in your life. It's going to be hard but He says He will help you...


...He says he wants to talk to you tonight and that you have to open your heart to hear him. So..be ready k?


and i thought to myself... WOW. this is amazing! i've always heard of people getting these sort of things but never has it happened to me! its so cool when someone sorta.. prophesies over you. =D

and that night, i sought Him for a long time. around an hour.. although i did not find Him how i thought i would, He still taught me things like to be persistent. never had i sat down and prayed for so long! o.o i learned to be still. to just sit in His presence and enjoy His peace. i learned to not just focus on Him when everybody else is in the mood, but also when you're alone by yourself in any environment. when everyone had left, i was still alone in the front, seeking God.

now that, was a change.


there were so many other awesome things in camp like.. my group! CHRYSLER! =D
shout out to you guys, you guys were great. although we didn't win anything, i enjoyed having you guys as my fellow.. warriors. lol ok no, that sounds too cheesy. fellow members. x)

anyway yes, there were so many other things but.. its 3.15 nao! o.o


--

prom.

i love the hotel! the place is just sweet. oh and everyone was looking beautiful and handsome yesterday night. i don't have many pictures because.. i forgot to bring my camera nooooooooooo.
and my phone camera kinda sucks. =\ but facebook is full of photos so..check it out! =D

i'd blog more but.. my body calls me to lie and fall into fitful slumber.

zzzzz.

i shall endeavour to blog more. =D

Thus ends my post.

EMILIO AGUINALDO. o.o

peer pressure.

my blog beckons to me..

"WRITE ON ME LAAHHHHH!!!"

it's been ages since i've blogged anything. o.o

and i think it'll be another "semester" of no blogging till..God knows when.

might decide to start blogging again after spm , since i would evidently have more free time...i think.

=D

SPM IS NEARING. HOLY GUACAMOLE.

sigh. reading liqi's and soonyi's blogs make me feel disparaged. =\
they post up such deep things! they expatiate themselves well. :D envy.

btw i'm sure there are others out there who blog very inspiring and spurring things, it's just i've been looking at their blogs lately. like really, lately. two minutes ago? x)

i hardly blog hop anymore. let alone, blog at all. lost the blog gist, ya know?

i usually think a lot (hence my blog title, musings.) , and i have a thing or two to say about current issues.. or the latest incident or whatever.

however, i'll end up being lazy, forgetting my points and not blog at all.
i'll also think at times that..

"nahhh.. this stuff is just like.. a brain fart. why would they wanna know?"
*holds backspace*

actually i think that most of the time i blog. o.o

but.

isn't that what a blog is for?

for expressing yourself?


i've been rather introverted for quite some time.
keep thoughts to myself.
hold my tongue.
and just listen to people and their stories.

gee, in fact i find it hard to look at myself in the personality mirror and see how i've changed.


have i changed a lot?
how? o.o


question for all you people :D (who actually bother to read this blog.)


i feel like taking a step out the door.
breathe in fresh air.
feel the breeze. remove these cutleries from mah knees.

i feel that the world needs some of my opinion. =D

till then..

Thus ends my post.